Your here! Today is the last day of your 10th week; I can hardly believe that you have been around that long. We are finally settling in to a good rhythm, but it has taken some getting used to. Even after this many weeks I still find myself overwhelmed at the idea of delving into the details and emotions of your arrival and the impact you have made on my life. So many nights after your birth I laid in my bed planning out how I would tell you about the day you were born. I want to recount the details perfectly, before it all slips away. I wonder if you will ever ask me to tell you again about the day you were born.
Just before you arrived a friend told me that I would never understand how much my parents loved me until you were born, and then I would be blown away to think that anyone ever loved me as much as I love you. She was right. I never knew my heart could be this full. I had no idea that I would ever be able to love someone like I love you. My heart aches just thinking of you, across the hall, sleeping to peacefully, smelling so sweet. I turn on the monitor just to have one more look before I fall asleep every night. We have been apart a few times, only when I feel like I might need a little mama time. The entire time am gone I am only thinking of you, wanting to get back to you, imagining your sweet smile in my mind's eye. How can this be? How is it possible that I love you this much? Will you ever know? Yes, when your daughter is born you will finally understand that love that fills my heart every time you smile at me.
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